I heard it a million times and knew it was true - you never know love like the love for your child. I loved this wonderful being before he was even conceived, but there is nothing like the love I feel for him now. It grows and grows every single day. Even when he was inside me, my love for this child was overwhelming. But again, nothing could have prepared me for the amount of joy and happiness he has brought to my life. I feel like I have won the lottery - the lottery of life. To know that this beautiful and gentle soul picked ME to be his mother melts my entire core right down to every bone. To pick him up and feel the love just radiating from both of us lights up my world and I finally feel complete. I know what I was put on this earth for, and that is to be his mama. He has completed my life, my family and my whole world beyond words. I have always looked ahead at my life, wanting the next step, the next stage, the next up in life. I was never content where I was in that moment in time.... always wanting more. For the first time in my life I am truly content and satisfied with this moment, and I wish it would never end. I have always been driven by that need for accomplishment, looking ahead at what task I could conquer next. This by far is the greatest accomplishment of my life, and if I died tomorrow, I know my life goal and purpose has been satisfied. He has so many great adventures ahead, and I look forward to being there, holding his hand, kissing away boo boo's, encouraging those first steps into the unknown and cherishing each and every moment this life will bring us. I love you Weston Michael Keller, with all of my heart, forever and always.
Milestones to remember this week:
You are starting to have more control over your hands, legs and head. You have always been feisty (even inside me) kicking and punching into thin air. As you grow, your movements are more refined and with purpose now. You are starting to rub your eyes when you are sleepy, play with your hair, grab onto different fabrics like your blanket, or a burprag. As I pat your back to burp you, I feel your hand flat on my back... are you trying to pat me back? Your legs are getting stronger, able to stretch out and hold your weight with only a little help with your balance. You can hold your head up on your own too, but you still have some of that adorable bobble head I love so much.
You have started smiling at daddy and me. Daddy even got you to laugh today for the first time. From the day you were born, you have coo'd. This most precious, spectacular sound comes out of you that just melts my heart every time. That coo has started to come with a curved up lip and this light in your eyes that just beams with happiness.
You have started to spit up quit a bit. Until this week, you have only spit up a little, and not very often. It has made for quit the load of laundry!
You had your first real blow out diaper today - it was so bad you needed a bath!. In the last 5 days you have only had 1 poopy diaper. They say this is normal, but I was starting to worry about you... But you gave mommy nothing to worry about today! Where was the camera when daddy and I were trying to frantically undress you and get you in the sink??? I'm sure we could have made it on America's Funniest Home Videos with that.
Nap times have been rough... You only want to sleep when you are in daddy or mine's arms. As soon as we lay you down, you wake up. If you do stay asleep, it is usually only for 20 minutes or so. Which is making it awfully difficult for mommy to get anything done around here!
Bedtime though is a different story! You seem to really like our bedtime routine, and it makes it sooo easy on mommy and daddy. Daddy was so proud and happy last night, he put you down by himself for the first time. Around 7:30 or 8, we start our downtime. Usually begins with a nursing session, then we change your diaper and get you into your jammies. After that we either read a bedtime story (thank you Grandma for the bedtime story book!) or sing a song. Then I lay you in your crib and watch you slowly drift off to dreamland. Tonight we sang "I'll be" by Edwin McCain - it seems so fitting. I will be the greatest fan of your life Weston!
-Love, Mommy
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